She thought she would be alone in the new surroundings.
But she was wrong.
She looked into him like a glamour star. She thought she was not able to be his friend.
But she was wrong.
She didn't think he would sing well.
But she was wrong.
She fell in love with his voice. She thought she could control her feelings.
But she was wrong.
She started to notice his daily life routine. She began to observe what he likes and what he dislikes. She thought she could understand him better one day.
But she was wrong.
He treat her nice sometimes and she misunderstood that he had a crush on her too.
But she was wrong.
She helped him to watch the live singing show and updated him the result. He thought she was interested in the singing show.
But she wasn't.
She thought she dislikes people who isn't generous. She thought she might dislike him.
But she didn't.
She thought she only liked someone with nice and neat teeth.
But she was wrong.
She was so longed to be in the same class or same society with him.
But she didn't.
She hoped that she could shared some same hobbies or interests with him.
But she didn't.
She learnt to play poker cards from him. She was rejoiced and trapped in the danger distance.
But she couldn't help.
And one day, she saw him gazing at the other girl gently and trying hard to make her laughed.
She knew that he liked the girl and she thought that she would overcome it.
But she was wrong.
She thought everything will be fine if she pretended she didn't know anything.
But she was wrong.
She thought she was able to understand and no jealousy.
But she couldn't.
She thought she was strong and tough enough to face both of them. But somehow, she couldn't.
She thought she was able to start every single thing from the zero after some break.
But she was wrong.
She felt in him deeply despite she seldom had a same topic to gossip with him. She knew she mustn't did that.
But she couldn't help.
She somehow wished that she knew what he was thinking and how to make him happy.
But she couldn't.
She felt depressed as she would always misunderstood what he talked about and had no idea about what was he thinking.
But she couldn't help.
And the day before the midterm exam, she was told that he liked that girl. She knew it from the start, and she thought she would be fine and accepted it.
But she didn't.
She cried and felt like dying in her bed but she said 'I'm fine'.
But she didn't.
She wished to be prettier, slimmer, cute and sing well. She hoped she was clever enough to understand what he was trying to convey everytime.
But she couldn't.
She did terrible in her exam. She thought it wasn't worth and she would couldn't accept her result.
But she was wrong.
She thought she would forgot everything and accept the truth that the one she liked didn't liked her.
But she was wrong again.
She told herself to treat him naturally just like the other friends. She tried it hard, made fun and joked as usual around him. She thought she was going to let go for this time.
But she was wrong.
She sinked into the depravation deeply until she couldn't help.
She was guilty towards her parents and her friends.
She knew it was wrong but she was stubborn to stay at this point, continuing to like him.
She knew that he is not the right one. He is a pair of heels, nice and attractive, but she was not suit for that. Heels are for the pretty girls who had slim legs. She isn't. She would need to continue to find a pair of comfortable sandals.
She is strong, tough, staunch, independent, and determine enough to go through all these. Someday soon.
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