I think this is the second favourite scene of mine in The Beauty and The Beast.
I couldn't find any screenshot for my top favourite one; it was the outdoor scene where both of them were standing on an icey bridge, amazed by the scenery of ice lake while Belle was reading out loud of the book she hold.
To me, it is always important that could experience something new and mesmerizing together with someone that truly feels you. Sympathy it calls, I guess?
Back then in 2015 I watched the animation version for the first time. As expected, I cried while Belle came back for the Beast but unfortunately he got shot by the stupid Gaston. So I was thinking that I wouldn't cry, or at least wouldn't cry as hard as last time since I had already knew the ending of the story. Perhaps I had forgotten that I always knew that Disney movie has never broke the happy ending rules, yet I always cry hard.
I guess maybe there isn't much thing for me to cry in my life, yet. So I have nowhere to let off the storage of my tears. Watching drama and movie is one of the best way to get rid of all those thingy.
I love how the two talked about the books that they read, understand how each other feels, and trying to understand how their loved one feels by trying something that they never did before; The beast read the Juliet and Romeo play secretly after Belle said that it was her favourite play.
The castle was just like the preserve place from the crowds and society. Belle and the Beast spent their great time have pleasure in reading books and sightseeing together without any interuption of other creatures.
And I always hope someday, when I really got the chance to spend my weekend with someone that could talk about a song or a movie, we could spend whole day together in our own compoud without any disruption and distraction.
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Knowing how to move on after assuring the things that I long for no longer belong to me, I told to love myself more. It had been almost 6 years, ever since the first time when I was thinking maybe I would want to explore his life passion and future goals. Tons of childish letters and words were written under his shadow. It managed to bring high marks in my essay test, but they were not managed to express anything to him. Soon I knew, I wasn't lack of any expressing skills; it was just the matter of courage.
After 6 years, the thought of 'What if I told him how I felt back then when I was young?' still appear in my mind, sometimes.
I was too young I guess.
15 years old I was. Everyone experienced that. And definitely it's different from anyone else.
Of course, we parted each other right after our school, and we are now obviously on the path life which will never cross each and another's path again.
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'Hey Jude' is a sad song, to me. But I like the melanchony in it in some way.
It reminds me the days where I fight silently yet boldly for something that I want it to be in my life badly, and at the end of the day I finally realize that the thing couldn't stay in my life.
Accompany that I wish to explore his thoughts and his world, doing things that I never did before; just like the Beast read the play that he thought it was cheesy at the very first place.
Those days were the days that taught me about love, passion and determination.
Along with what I had learnt, I lived on for another 2 years and half.
Duty, responsibilities and economic pressure, they were all in my life, for so long I did not have any seconds of the thought of thinking how should I propose to someone I like anymore.
Chasing for something that we like, it turns out to be a realization of the life reality.
It might or might not be yours. But if it's your thing, it will definitely come to you, one day.
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So for so long I didn't yearn for any company, in terms of relationship.
I always believe that fairy tales remain as the tales. Hardwork or determination don't always pay off with a happy ending.
Quoting some words that Joshua said:"Life is full of shits."
Happy ending might exist, perhaps just not in your life, who knows.
Instead of yearning for the sweet moments with the loved one, I learnt that I might need to learn to be more independence on relying on my own shoulder as I think it's broad enough to lift the burdens and obstacles alone.
There will still be some moments the feeling of grieve hits you hard whenever you're in trouble but you know you have shield yourself up and fight hard as you don't have a tall, handsome and protective boyfriend as those movies' or dramas' female leads have.
But girls are not born to be protected. So there is no need for us to be weak, to be petite, to be fragile.
Be tough and be brave while do not lose your sympathy towards creatures around you.
And one day, you might find your true love, on yourself.
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